PSALM 121:2: “My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth!” (NLT)
OBSERVATION: Have you ever felt like you had a hole in your heart? Are you facing such intense pain that when you read a verses like Psalm 121:2, it seems like something that may be true for others, but certainly not for you. How can God be my help – when I am hurting so badly? How can God care for me, when this pain in my heart never seems to go away?
As I was praying over these thoughts, the Lord reminded me of something that I went through, and that at the time seemed to make no sense. Yet, as I continued to pray, I felt it was a prophetic allegory of God’s care for us when we feel like we have a hole in our heart. What I am about to share is meant in no way to suggest that I understand what you might be going through. The reality of emotional pain is – the pain we feel is our unique pain, and no one else really understands what we are going through! Yet, while I may not understand your unique situation or pain, will you please take a moment to listen to what I believe is a word of encouragement from the Lord.
A few years back, I went to my Dermatologist for a routine check up. It was determined that I had a mole on my stomach that needed to be removed. I went in for the surgery, and it took longer than usual, as they had to cut deeper than expected to remove the mole. This was complicated by the fact that I have an artificial heart valve and take blood thinners. The recovery was not as expected. I bled internally and the wound became a hole as the stitches broke apart. When I went into the emergency room one Sunday after finishing our morning worship service, the doctor cleaned out the wound, and I was left with a hole in my stomach. The size of this hole was between a quarter and a half dollar.
The wound was too deep and wide for stitches. I literally had a hole in my stomach! The doctor said it would have to heal from the inside out. Now, if you know me, you know that I am not very good with this type of thing. I could hardly look at it. I get very uneasy with anything that has to do with medical issues. Every time I had to look at my stomach, I felt like I was going to pass out. I didn’t even like to talk about. Yet, every morning I had to look at it again. All I could do was follow the doctor’s instructions. The only course of treatment for this hole in my stomach was to take off the dressing each morning, get into the shower, and allow the clean, clear water from the shower, to wash over this open wound.
And so I did this – day after day, week after week. I never really shared this with anyone but my immediate family. I just knew this hole was never going to heal. Every morning I would have to look at it all over again, place it under the clean, clear water of the shower, and then put a dressing on it and pretend that it was not there – until the next morning. Each day, each morning I was reminded of the wound and the pain all over again! This went on for months. It took months for this hole to heal, but slowly it did began to heal – FROM THE INSIDE OUT! Eventually this wound closed up, but not without leaving a quarter sized scar and divot in my stomach. The impression and scar on my stomach continually remind me of this experience. I never thought of this much, but as I prayed, the Lord whispered to my heart –
“THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I DO WITH A WOUNDED HEART!”
You cannot simply close up a hole in your heart. You can’t act like it is not there, and that it does not hurt. And you can’t escape the feeling that it will never go away. A hole in your heart has to heal slowly, and in God’s timing. A hole in your heart has to heal – FROM THE INSIDE OUT!
At times it will seem like nothing is happening, the pain is still the same, no one understands, and that you will never get better. Yet, the Lord is daily and continually inviting you to place your heart under the warm and wonderful shower of His healing love, mercy, and grace. As you do, His love washes over you, and He begins the healing process in your heart – FROM THE INSIDE OUT! This healing is invisible at first, and it does not automatically remove the pain. Yet, as you continue to place yourself under the rivers of His love, mercy, and grace – YOUR HEART TRULY BEGINS HEALING – FROM THE INSIDE OUT!
The healing of a hole in the heart will never be without a scar! Yet, this scar will come to be a reminder of the power of God’s Love, Mercy, and Grace in your life. When the healing is completed, this scar will give you a living testimony, and the Lord will use you to minister to others who are walking through the same experience you now find yourself in. And, when your healing is complete, you will truly know with certainty that – “My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth!” Psalms 121:2 NLT
So what do you do now? Each day your are reminded of the pain. Just as I had to look at my wound day after day, everything in your life seems to remind you of your pain. Yet, the wonderful showers of His love, mercy, and grace are always flowing. Every opportunity you have, place yourself under these showers of Healing! Surround your life with opportunities to receive His All Sufficient Grace. Fill your life with music that draws your heart closer to the Lord. Remember and meditate on all the times the Lord has faithfully provided for you in the past. Read and meditate upon the Book of Psalms. Don’t draw away from your church family and opportunities to join in worship. Be the first one to go – every time the doors are open! Surround yourself with friends who will love you unconditionally, support you empathetically, and always point you to Jesus!
Let His Love, Mercy, and Grace – WASH OVER YOU EVERY DAY – AND IN EVERY WAY!
- “The Spirit of the LORD is upon Me, Because He has anointed Me To preach the gospel to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives And recovery of sight to the blind, To set at liberty those who are oppressed; To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD.” Luke 4:18-19 NKJV
The showers of God’s Love, Grace, and Mercy are flowing toward you today! Enter into the fullness of His anointing that heals the broken-hearted. And know for a surety that –
HE IS HEALING THE HOLE IN YOUR HEART – FROM THE INSIDE OUT!
In Jesus Name!